Meatless arms dangle with a distinct lack of purpose, eyes so deep-set one needn’t ask how you slept last night - one knows you didn’t. Remember 13 hours ago you said it’s time for sleep? And then again, 11 and a half ago? Then do you remember forgetting what you were doing in bed when the flood came? When mom dies, what’ll I do? Could I really fend off the burglar when he decides to climb through the window? I like the smell of her shampoo. I need to sleep. This position is perhaps the least comfortable orientation of hands, legs, feet, neck, arms and head. It’s hot in here. I just got an e-mail. Remember 10 hours ago when you said, okay, really now, shut all that off and get to sleep? What was that noise? Fucking cats. Why are pillows so lifeless? What kind of question was that?  I think you might be going crazy, slowly. No, you wouldn’t know if you were going crazy. You’re really smart, and I think, shit I don’t know. Granddad. Does anyone else feel suffocated in this place? I make myself stay up late so I sleep in, just so I have fewer waking hours. How miserable. People are pretty fucking terrible some days. They’re just terrible other days. I haven’t met a nice person in a while. My left arm is itching. It’s 1:47. If I fall asleep right now, I will have seven solid hours. I can’t fall asleep instantly, no one can. If it takes me another half hour to fall asleep, that’s okay, I’m still getting more than six. I’m tired. I’m tired. My head hurts, always. I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m going to scratch my arm now. I found the second most uncomfortable position. I’m lying supine now. People don’t sleep like this. Maybe some people can. I choked on my toothbrush just before I got into bed. I’m thirsty. It’s 2:31. I’ll read. My book’s in my car. I need to study. Remember when you said you could still get six hours’ sleep? The train is going by. Remember that sound? Remember staying with Granddad, up through the night? The best time to cry is right before sleep. There are so many possibilities for everything. Creationism is bullshit. It’s nearly 4. I dunno.